a couple of years ago, i would curse at you right about now. but i'm *trying* to be a better person. so i'm just gonna shut my mouth and wait for this very unpleasant feeling to pass.
now i understand why the heart is associated with feelings (even if my expensive medical education tells me that it is only a measly mechanical pump). but at times like this i can actually feel a sort of disturbance in that region. suddenly it feels like there's a huge void, a vacuum where the 4 chambers should be. sigh.. this sucks (no pun intended).
the last time i felt this way, i wrote a lengthy, verbose letter to you detailing every single dissatisfaction i had. but of course i was too much of a coward to show those tear-stained papers to you.
i cant believe i'm back here again.
i need a pick-me-up.
or maybe i need to take up boxing.
or shooting.
"you got something i want
just a little bit
no matter how hard i try to fight it
you're gonna bring this girl to her knees"
