excited

sometimes you just wanna do better, do more. it's innate, it's human nature. iA this will be it. i pray for guidance and help. but mostly i pray for consistency.

need to go back and dust off my files now.

"closing time

you dont have to go home

but you cant stay here

closing time

every new beginning

comes from some other beginning's end"

I wasn't warned

Refrain from doing things you will/might regret.
You just know it'll come back and bite you in the butt.
Or it'll just appear in your friend's fb friend list.
Now all you can do is hope and pray that you can turn virtually invisible.
Sigh...

wasted

years of effort went down the drain

it is just such a terrible shame

you can train and train and train

teach new things to your brain

but then your little heart muses

"i can win this masochistic game"

we end up being a bunch of losers

ending up being emotionally maimed

"So i hate you're overrated most revered

and celebrated because you're wasted

But everytime you close a door

and nothing opens in its place, you've wasted"

that's it

ten years wrapped up in thirty days.

ten seasons in just one month.

there's nothing to look forward to now.

this makes me sad.

at least she got off the plane.

"it's like you're always stuck in second gear

when it hasn't been your day, your week, your month

or even your year

but i'll be there for you

cause you're there for me too"

he says, she says - #unknown

"Pheobe. That's, P, as in Phoebe, H, as in heobe, O as in oebe, E, as in ebe, B, as in bebe, and E as in... Ello there mate."

Pheobe Buffay AKA Regina Phalange,

Masseuse, Singer-songwriter,

and a friend that can never fail to make me laugh

it's 0430 and i'm doing this. i clearly need to sleep now.

"who wants to be riding high

when you'll just crumble back on down

who wants to be right as rain

it's better when something is wrong"

my holiday wish

I do not want 20th June 2011 to come.

if anyone can make that happen then everything will be super.

did i just say super?

must be the pleasantville movie on the plane.

"and now, in my dreams,

i can feel this way, i can just come clean,

i keep it to myself, i know what it means,

i cant have you, but i have dreams"

i miss you

i really do.

midnights make me feel blergh

"i find you stunning but you are running me down

my love's too big for you my love

tell me what to do to take away the you

if i was stronger then i would leave this show"

i've truly had enough

I can't help but wonder..
Do you do that intentionally to annoy me?
Or are you really that selfish?

risk - no it's no longer just a game my friends

would you risk the fall just to know how it feels to fly?

or

would you stand on solid ground where there's not much height to fall?

i've chosen. have you?

"to know you is hard: we wonder

to know you all wrong: we were

to the outside: the dead leaves, they're on the lawn

before they died, had trees to hand their hope"

right?

sometimes i wonder...
why do i even bother?

it's not even light out

suddenly you've somewhere to be

i've got a bad feeling

you're going to throw it all away

with no hesitation

whoa son

as long as i know you'll be there, i'm good.

yang lain tu, well, that's just bonus.

the words get trapped in my mind

i'm sorry if i dont take the time to feel the way i do

and i feel sorry for the losers that will never take the time to say

what's really on their mind instead they just hide away

if you think you've got it bad..

i had no shoes and i complained
until i met a man who had no feet
that’s really beat

i had no feet and i complained

until i met a man who had no knees

that was his disease
i had no knees and i complained

until i met a man and you know what

he had no butt

i had no butt and i complained about it all

and then i met a man who had no balls

i had no balls and i complained

until i met a man who had no guts

no balls no butt and now no guts

i had no guts and i complained

until i met a man who had no heart

the most important part

i had no heart and i complained

i did not understand

and then i met a man who had no hands

i had no hands and i complained

until i met a man who was a wreck

he had no neck

i had no neck and i complained

until i met a man who had no chin

some folks lose and some folks win

i had no chin and i complained

until i met a man who had no nose

that really blows

i had no nose and i complained

until i met a man who never cries

he had no eyes

i had no eyes and i complained

until i met a man who felt no pain

he had no brain

i had no brain and i complained

until i met a man who had no head

as good as dead

i had no head and i complained

until i met a man who had no hair

there was nothing there
i had no hair and i complained

until i met a man who had no hat

picture that not even a hat

i had no hat and i complained

until i met a man who had no sky

no reason why
i had no sky and i complained

until i met a man who had no stars

no venus or mars and not any stars
i had no stars and i complained

until i met a man who had no god

that’s rather odd

i had no god and I complained

until i met a man who had no faith

nothing just in case

i had no faith and i complained

until i met a man who had no love

nothing to dream of

i had no love and i complained

until i met a man who had no hope

at the end of his rope

i had no hope and i complained

until i met a man who had no luck

that really sucks

i had no luck and i complained
that i had nothing left to lose

and then i met a man who had no shoes.

written by paranoid larry, joe shapiro and neil murphy
performed by the roches

honestly...

... when it's all said and done, i'd rather not have to see your face again.

but that's not gonna happen in this world though.

"so if you're too school for cool

and you're treated like a fool

so raise your glass if you are wrong

in all the right ways"

i'm no expert but...

I think this is how it starts...

"maybe then you'll hear the words i've been singing

funny when you're dead how people start listening"

hush-hush

the things that are not said..
they are the things all around we cart
they are the things closest to the heart
they are the things most often regretted.

sometimes the thing we fear the most
when the lips would no longer be able to hide
would no longer be able to contain
secrets coming out like a rushing tide
like a broken dam
like a broken prison gate
like a broken heart

well at least then the concealed
can at the very last be revealed
basking itself in the light of day
till finally there will be nothing left to say
till finally
i will be free


"All secrets are deep. All secrets become dark. That's in the nature of secrets." -Cory Doctorow

"baby you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart

baby, you've got the sort of face to start this old heart

baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me

and makes me grow strong and tall and proud then flattens me"