Joshua Evans

listening to someone talk so passionately about the Quran gave me goosebumps. mashaAllah.

yes, i know it's a bit lengthy but it's a good watch.

it can be an eye opener.

it can be a reminder.

"the best form of da'wah that you can do for this world is very, very simple..the best way to do da'wah is for Muslims to be Muslims. That's it."

oh glorious holidays

one a day for the past eight days

sunday was a day i kicked it old school with

how was your break? as productive?

sheesh...

"we have fallen down again tonight

in this world it's hard to get it right

everybody, everybody wants to love

everybody, everybody wants to be loved"

of dreams

dreams are just weird. the people in them. the things done. it's a merry-go-round of weirdness and the ride doesn't stop till you wake up.

i hope that i'll forget last night's. or at least have it not be remembered so vividly. it's troubling.

"if i was stronger then i would tell you no

if i was stronger then i would leave this show

if i was stronger then i would up and go

but here i am and here we go again"

reminder to myself

dear self,

if you think you've got it bad, imagine being lost at sea for 50 days. surviving on puddles of rainwater, raw fish and bird.

what you're going through is peanuts. pi-nads!

happy 27.11.2010!

"Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?

just a cage of rib bones and other various parts

so it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess

and to stop the muscle that makes us confess"

october

in view of it being a breast cancer awareness month, i've decided to make this pink. yes, you've read correctly. i'm voluntarily making this blog pink.

p/s - personally, i still dont like pink. it's too girly.

for your sake

please read more into what you read.
research about the topic from other sources.
be critical. be skeptical. scrutinize.
otherwise, you'd be the perfect target.
the gullible naive who would believe anything.
the media's prey.

please do use that 3lbs of neuronal tangle you have in your skull.
put it to good use.


"Everyday is a struggle between what I wanna say
And what I should keep to myself
Everyday is a battle between what I wanna know
And what I don't wanna figure out"

E.M.O

sometimes i hate that i'm so damn emotional.
it's so easy to blame it on the hormones, no?

to you

you think you're so good

but you're not

screw you!

*yes, i'm feeling very negative today*

of technology

dear internet,

you truly are an amazing invention.

we've had plenty of great times together.

and i have to say it's difficult to imagine my life wo you.

but now you're disappointing me.

please stop.

love, sara

"i need another story

something to get off my chest

my life gets kinda boring

need something that i can confess"

not in a good mood

is it too much to ask that my home be a home.

somewhere i can let my hair down.

a sanctuary from strangers.

but nooooo..

that's just one too many thing to expect.

i couldve said so many things.

but i chose to keep silent.

i decided to be the better person.

i'm so tired of this.

man, i just cant wait to get out of here.

terendak is looking quite pleasing at the moment!

small

size does not determine significance

tiny things count as much as big ones

like the laughter of children

the ice-cold drink on a hot sunny day

in life, the little things matter too.

it's a sad day when i am ignorant of the blessings of God Almighty.

have a good midnight people.

"what i've got is full stock of thoughts

and dream that scatter

you pull them all together"

happy thursday everybody

Alhamdulillah, today i had a good day.

browsed books for more than an hour.
bought 6 at the price of 3.
sang my heart out.
ate a sub, a scone, a plate of carbonara and a banana muffin.

it was worth being stuck in the horrendous traffic.

how was your 08/07/2010?


" And i've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Well, you are the only exception"

pepatah zaman baru

"orang tamak selalu kenyang"

"orang malu selalu lapar"

*apparently we have too much time on our hands*


"Perfect shadows alive behind us
This is the day i make you mine
I know not long has grown
Well i thank god u came along"

he says, she says - #10, 11, 12

"I'm an early bird and a night owl. So I'm wise and I have worms."

"When I discovered YouTube, I didn't work for five days. I did nothing. I viewed cookie monster sings chocolate rain about 1,000 times."

"I love inside jokes. I'd love to be a part of one someday."

Michael Gary Scott,
Regional Manager (Scranton Branch),
Dunder Mifflin Paper Company, Inc

"If you were falling, then I would catch you.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am."

Goals (no, not the world cup kind)

Just as I've set my goals previously
- an MBBS before I'm 25
- a house at 30
- an advance degree before 35
- hajj before 40

I've got my eyes on another.
But personal goals are no longer personal when it involves another.


" O Allah if You know this affair is to be good for me
in relation to my religion, my life and end,
my present and my future,
then decree and facilitate it for me and bless me with it.
But if You know this affair to be detrimental for me
concerning my religion, my life and end,
my present and my future,
then remove it from me and remove me from it
and decree for me what is good
wherever it be and make me satisfied with it."

hiatus

Now that was a pretty long hiatus.
Not that anyone missed me. Haha

It has been a long two months and a lot has happened.
Weddings of people who matter.
Finishing third year.
Short but meaningful vacations.
It has been a good holiday thus far.

Just one more thing and it would be perfect.
Hoping and praying for a miracle is the worst.



"I never thought that you wanted for me to stay
So I left you with the girls that came your way
This is not what I'm like, this is not what I do
This is not what I'm like, I think I'm falling for you"

black

i've decided that white is too bright a colour.
too happy, too sunshiny.
let's go back to being dark and twisty.

"i like to mean what i say
but it don't always come through
If i say it all again and again
it does'nt make it come true"

don't look back

Choose inaction.
Don't be a gambler,
nor an entrepreneur,
nor a daredevil.
Why risk the fall,
risk the rejection,
risk the pain?

"Orpheus melted the heart of Pesephone,
but i never had yours
i followed you back to the end of the path,
but i never found the door"

phil-inks

feelings are pretty much delusions.
that is until they're acknowledged and communicated.
one can regard its existence in a prose, in a joke or even in a stupid blog.

feelings are fleeting.
one morning you can just wake up and the feelings can be gone.
you rub your eyes as you think to yourself maybe those feelings were just a dream.

it is almost a month. why haven't i been able to kick it yet?
it is almost a month. why haven't i been able to act on it?


"and i wonder if i ever cross your mind
for me it happens all the time
it's a quarter after one,
i'm all alone and i need you now"

we are all detarrevo

.

when push comes to shove
i'd be shunned out of the pack
the sun and the clouds are all that's left
to see me through these jungle treks
to the winding streams i will go
the mountain peaks i'd conquer
i'll pull through this bad weather
for i'm a determined lone ranger

underneath it

if that is your choice

i'll be sad

but i won't be crushed

there wont be laughter

but there wont be tears shed either

i'll accept, i'll move on

others have no idea

they don't know

and you probably wont either

May God bless your future endeavors

"i'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows

but if i lose the highs, at least i'm spared the lows

i think i better leave right now

before i fall any deeper"

could it be worse?

"good night"

being a Gallus domesticus sucks.

"when you feel so tired but you cant sleep

stuck in reverse

but if you never try you'll never know

just what you're worth"

the fear inside

delusions result from convoluted biochemistry reactions.
so do feelings.

but while delusions can be treated pharmacologically,
feelings can't. unfortunately.


i need opinions.
i need advice.
i need guidance.


i'm two steps away
from loneliness
i'm awake, i'm alive
and i'm feeling incomplete

you should know

i feel sad when you're sick.
i really do.


so tonight
i'm gonna find a way to make it
without you

he says, she says - #9

.

"i'm polymerized tree sap and you're an inorganic adhesive,
so whatever verbal projectile you launch in my direction is reflected off me,
returns on its original trajectory and adheres to you."

Dr Sheldon Lee Cooper, MSc, PhD,
Theoretical Physicist and a child prodigy with an eidetic memory

"i'm barely making sense for now
i'm faking it till i'm pseudo making it
from scratch begin again but this time i as i
and not as we"

i'd risk the fall just to know how it feels to fly

it's amazing how much i love you

though i haven't met you

how much i've forgiven

though you haven't wronged me

how much i've sacrificed for you

though you don't know it yet

how much you've affected my life

though you have no clue at all

you better live up to my ridiculously high expectation

"no matter how far you are

no matter how long it takes

and if you have to walk a million miles

i'll wait a million days to see your smile

through distance and time, i'll be waiting"

of children

.

sometimes i love them.

sometimes they bug my life.

the inability to love them unconditionally only means that they're not mine. not because i'm a bad person.

"somewhere seems so nice and new

someday dreams they can come true

i'll fly away

oh i'll find my way

to someday soon"